A change of plans...

Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans.

-John Lennon

Alas, it's been far to long since I updated this damn thing. Actually, I don't believe I've updated this damn thing since its inception.

How life has changed, these past few months.

In my twenty-three years on this planet, I have never been so distressed, but never been so at peace. I am a living, breathing, paradox.

At this point, I can honestly admit I have no idea what this life has in store.

When I first made the move to Oregon, I thought I had everything planned out. Twenty hours per week at the radio station, my stepping stone into radio glory.

Alongside, forty hours per week at the restaurant, making more than enough money to pay my bills while concurrently running down the dream.

A nice place downtown, where eventually, I would be able to support myself and get some furniture, and a place to call my own.

Grabbing life by the horns, and doing whatever it takes to make it.

Wake up, Cole.

Four hours a week in radio, with limited to no air time at all...
Twenty hours a week at the restaurant, working terrible shifts, dealing with terrible people, leaving terrible tips because they are worried about a terrible economy.

How about sleeping on a couch, calling a living room, 'your own', so long as your roommates aren't around.

Trying, desperately to maintain my grip on said horns, doing what it takes to survive.

Regardless of how it was supposed to turn out, I'm making the best of this situation.

Even though I feel like I am drowning at times, and even though I'm nowhere near where I thought I would be a calender year ago, I can consider myself a success.

At the end of the day, I have made wonderful friends with wonderful individuals.

I have a job, two for that matter, which is more than I can say for about ten percent of the state of Oregon.

Regardless of what happens, I am thankful for this experience.

And I'm excited for what life has in store for me.

so let go, jump in.
oh well, whatcha waiting for?
it's alright,
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown.
so let go, just get in,
oh, it's so amazing here...
it's alright,
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown.
-Frou Frou, "Let Go"

The First Line of the First Page

"So you take a picture of something you see,
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun,
Or a write a song nobody has sung.
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done..."
--Coldplay, "Talk"

So here I am...embarking on this great adventure known as life.

I'm becoming a dirty conformist...just like a lot of the people I know who've graduated, I'm writing a blog.

"Dear God, he used the 'b' word!" you're thinking.

I do what I want. Besides, this is a way for friends and family to know how I'm faring out here on my own.

I'm relearning to enjoy and appreciate the simple things in life. Conversation, friendship, dedication.

I've left all that I know behind in hopes of chasing what seems to be a fleeting dream...but I know I won't be worth a damn through the rest of my life unless I give this stupid, boyhood dream a try.

Here goes.

"You gotta swim,
Swim when it hurts,
The whole world is watching;
You haven't come this far,
To fall off the earth..."
-Jacks Mannequin, "Swim"